To continue my story.. so from he was 6 months old onwards.. first time dia demam panas on 9 May 2013, with temperature 38.5 degrees.. memang for u guys out there temperature cam ni takdelah tinggi sangat.. but as for me, it was high because he has never gotten fever before.. then bila demam cam ni, terus naik quite high.. he had fever for 2 days.. thursday n friday.. then the week after that.. he had another fever on friday but only for one day..of course la bila baby demam.. its considered benda biase je kan.. nak tumbuh gigi lah ape lah.. tukar bulan and all that kan.. so then the next week.. on friday..demam lagi.. being a Malay, i mula la fikir pasal benda2 ghaib ni.. but in the end, i ignored it la.. maybe it was just a coincidence. But at that time we were in Penang visiting my dad.. bagi dia spend time with his cucu pertama.. so i thought aisy demam sebab new environment and what not.. but his demam memang only for one day aje..
So then after that balik from Penang.. macam biase..continue working n all that.. oh yea, i actually have been emailing the head of paediatrician of Putrajaya Hospital asking about the lump on the chest and she was very prompt and helpful in her reply. So i was less worried but still quite worried. then after few days.. my maternal paranoia kicked in.. tetiba i rasa macam nodule @ lump kat left chest dia tuh macam besar skit.. tak banyak..maybe 1mm je kot..hehehe.. but hubby said im just imagining things hahah.. maybe i am la..sebab how can i detect a 1mm growth kan?? Tak logic la pulak hihi.. but i still tak puas hati and my heart tells me that i should do something about it.. also, i wanted to see his weight gain punya progress sebab when he was 5 months, he weighed 7.9kg.. during 6 months, he weighed 8.1kg.. not much difference.. so i was curious to see what his weight would be when he reaches 7 months. Few days after that, hubby tanya.. so confirm ke nak jumpa paed monday ni? Monday was 3rd June 2013 which is Aisy’s 7 month birthday.. i kept quiet for awhile.. listened to my heart.. then i said.. yes.. confirm kita gi jumpa.. so oklah monday amik cuti and we continued our way to Klang.. i think it was like 11am.. tunggu kat waiting area.. while aisy gaze his way around.. and feeling excited.. coz he loves jalan2 and seeing new things. I think all babies r like that la kot? Huhu.. then suddenly it was our turn to go in.. so paed tanya.. what seems to be the matter? Since he is not there for his vaccination.. (FYI for those yg taktau, 6 months is the last vaccination before the 12 months vaccination). Anyway, i told the doctor about my concern regarding the minor growth of his nodule tuh. When the paed took a look at it.. he said.. are u sure it has grown? It seems like the same size as it was a month ago.. huhuhu so i said, im just being paranoid la kot.. then the doctor decided to weigh aisy.. guess what.. ? his weight was still 8.1kg.. that was when the paed’s face changed.. he looked a little worried.. then he put aisy on the examination bed and started to examine aisy’s body.. tekan sana..tekan sini.. then..suddenly he asked me soalan cepu mas..Has aisy been having fever lately?? .. terus DUP!!!! Jantung i terus jatuh.. and i informed that doctor about dia demam tiap2 minggu tuh.. then when the doc was pressing near his stomach n liver.. he showed a more concerned face.. i dah memang tak tentu arah dah kot rasanya.. tgk hubby jap..hubby pun muka macam xtau nak expect ape.. then tgk muka doctor..lagi la rasa nak pengsan.. aisy relax je sambil main toy kat situ..then after a long silence.. the paed said.. please bring your son to the hospital today.. there seem to be something wrong with his liver n spleen (hati dan limpa).. dia rasa macam liver n spleen tuh bengkak.. then he said.. this might be caused by an infection.. OR...... it could also be CANCER.. i felt my face burning.. couldn’t feel my knees.. telinga rasa berdesingggg jer.. tapi tahan..sebab nak kena dengar doctor explain and instruct ape nak buat.. so he said.. “I’m gonna write u a reference letter for u to refer to the hospital”. So we said, okay, refer us to Putrajaya Hospital because we were thinking sana facilities baru plus tak ramai sangat orang compared to PPUM or any other govt hospital, also because i have been corresponding with the head of paed kat sana kan, maybe she can help. moreover, Putrajaya is quite near to our place which is in Subang.
Before we left the doctor’s room.. he said..”Please.. you have to go today.. do not delay and get your son admitted to the hospital”. I left the room with tears started falling.. next thing I know i was crying my eyes out, not knowing ape nasib anak i..hubby tried to calm me down.. saying that kita taktau ape lagi.. maybe doctor silap ke.. or maybe its just a minor infection ke.. we shouldn’t be overwhelmed with uncertainties katanyer.. okay.. so i tried calming myself down.. eventhough nangis sekejap, muka dah bengkak habis.. parents lain kat situ semua pandang jerr.. im sure they were wondering ape hal sebenarnya.. mesti hati diaorg meronta2 nak tau.. tapi takleh nak tanya la kan, kang nampak cam kaypochi jer eheh.. so okaylah, i went to the toilet, washed my face.. istighfar.. tenangkan diri.. then i joined my hubby n my son at the payment counter.. usually the bill would be RM30 for consultation fees, its a private clinic but not the expensive kind.. but the specialty there is it’s a maternity centre. That was the same place i gave birth to Aisy.. that was the reason why we brought him there for his monthly check ups and vaccination.
While waiting for the nurse to call us to make our payments, I went outside to call my mom and mom-in-law and inform them about the situation and that we are going to Putrajaya hospital. They were both of course very concern. Then i went back in, we just sat there while i plant my kisses on my baby.. memikirkan nasib dia.. i peluk dia kuat2.. kiss dia sampai dia rimas.. J pastu nurse panggil..bayar bill.. then hubby gi amik kete.. and we left the place.. we went back home to pack few things.. just incase Aisy will be admitted on that day itself. Packing la baju2 dia.. our clothes as well.. then about 3pm we left.. i called my dad on the way there n told him as well, he was quite upset but told me to keep calm and trust in Allah.. and so i did.. of course..
Around 3.45pm, we reached Putrajaya Hospital, at the emergency entrance then we were told to go to the paediatrician specialist clinic inside, then sampai sana.. they said system down, come back tomorrow untuk amik darah because they can’t register us on that day.., then thursday baru boleh jumpa specialist.. lambat kot?? dengan rasa risau, kelam kabut, hangin! We left and set an appointment for the next day untuk amik darah semata2.. ok fine, takpelah, nak buat macam mane.. pasrah jelah.. balik tuh, i terus email the head of paed of Pjaya Hosp and told her what had happened, then dengan baik hatinya, she arranged for us to come back tomorrow for blood investigation and to see the specialist terus. Tak payah nak tunggu hari khamis bagai.. wahh rasa macam org penting kejap, ade contact besar kan hahahahah padahal i don’t even know the doctor and she doesn’t know me as well. She was just very kind and helpful by nature. Anyway, lega rasanyaaa.. sebab kita taknak lah tangguh2 since paed dekat klang tu suruh cepat2 kan?? Cuak la jugak..
So our trip to Pjaya Hosp the next day i sambung jap gi ek..
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